Wanting What You Have

I have been with my significant other, Eddie, for 17 1/2 years. We have been through a lot together. Yesterday his Dad Charlie passed away from pneumonia and other complications. He would have been 88 in October. My Dad's been gone since 1991, although it seems like yesterday.

Times like this makes me realize that some of the things that I make a big deal of are not really all that important. I try very hard to let things go and be as they are, but as we all know, that is very difficult in this day and age. But losing someone we care about does bring it all home on how short our time here really is. For instance, everyone's been blogging about how awful winter has been, the huge amounts of snow and the long depressing months of winter. But yet, here it is already March - how that happened I have no idea - and spring is just around the corner. Before you know it, summer will be here and we'll be rushing through another year.

I cannot help but wish that I had some of the years back to live over where I lost precious time with my loved ones, or spent too much time being in a foul mood or feeling sorry for myself for whatever reason. I know I can't get the time back, so maybe from tomorrow on, I'll try to be better about everyday things and work with what I have. I have a framed stitchery that says "For a happy life, want what you have." I'm going to try to do my best to maybe accomplish that in the days to come and making the best of what I have.

I'm 53. I'm not exactly a spring chicken anymore. So if things are going to change, I think I'm probably the only one who can make them change, at least for me.

I'll let you know how that goes...